an (almost) accurate portrayal of how i've spent most of my bank holiday weekend
over the last few months I've updated my blog, mostly infrequently, with the promise of more content and/or passion to follow, and as you've probably noticed, every time I've failed to deliver on said promises.
since beginning my third year of university I've found myself with less time to blog, so blogging became less of a priority and thus became less important to me, and over the last few months I think any interest in or passion for blogging as i previously have done has slowly fizzled out, so I thought I'd pop by today to say that from here on my blog's probably going to change.
2014 for me was a great year for blogging: I was into my beauty, outfits and ponderings and I updated at least three times a week, but since we ticked over into 2015 that passion and desire that I once had in regards to blogging has dried up.
I'm thinking money may have played a part in my loss of desire, simply because I don't have as much money to spend on makeup or clothes, and in turn I've felt as though I've had less to share, so I feel like it's a natural progression. don't get me wrong, I still love reading other personal style blogs and a handful of cruelty free blogs, but I'm not so sure I'm all that bothered about throwing my two cents about the topics into the pot anymore, or at least not in ways that I have done in the past.
I'm not all that sure of the future of my blog at the moment, simply because on occasion I do like to have the platform to speak about/show my work or the things that I'm interested in, but I don't want the pressure of having to stick to a rigid schedule. I think my blog needs to become more organic, more of a place for me to update as and when I see fit, rather than a place that satisfies the need for content (no matter how dull it may be) simply because I feel the need to please an audience.
I'll be honest, I'm not sure what draws people to my blog or entices them to follow, but I assume for different people there are different reasons because my blog has previously covered beauty to fashion to illustration, and I get that not everyone will be here for all three of those things, and that's fine. for me personally however, I think the future of my blog probably lies within my illustration work because I feel like it's the only constant in my life right now, simply because I don't need to put money into creating – I just do it. I know beauty and fashion can be worked around a tight budget, but I honestly don't think I care all that much about those things anymore; there are so many fantastic beauty/style bloggers out there that I don't think my voice is very necessary or relevant, but I do think that I should be using my voice to speak out about my creative projects and direction in life, particularly at a time where I'll be graduating and hopefully settling into a new, creative, exciting job, but we'll see about that in the future.
I think the bottom line here is to expect my blog to be much more quiet from now on. I'll no doubt update semi frequently about any creative projects, and on occasion I might even blog about any beauty/fashion that I felt I simply had to share, but I think I'm giving up on the blogging for an audience thing and now I'm just gonna play it cool and update because I want to, not because I feel that I need to, and hopefully from that my blog can become a more interesting and engaging place for not only me, but also for anyone else who may read it.
and that's all, really. thanks to anyone who's enjoyed the ride this far, and thanks to anyone who sticks around and enjoys the changes. if not, that's okay, I don't think the loss of my ex content is going to upset anybody. for now, here's to getting on with things because I want to do so.